Just knowing what to do...

Just knowing what to do sometimes can be very hard, espically when it comes to love.  I'm right now part of a relationship that is broken up but it feels like we are just on a break for the time being.  He's (Let's just call him John) in college and I'm a senior in high school.  I don't know what to do when we talk.  Each phone call makes me wonder if we will get back together.  'John' is the first guy I have ever loved.  He showed me what love was and how i deserve to be treated.  I have people who are telling me that us being together isn't going to happen and that I should just get rid of all the things he has gotten me, and I don't feel as if I can do that.  I love him too much to just let go.  I don't know what to do.  I want to be with him forever, he inspired me to love again and its hard for me to think that maybe I shouldn't be with him and that I should shut myself off to men all together again.  I was very quick to be in this relationship with him and that wasn't the smartest thing thats for sure but, I fell in love with him hard and fast.  He was and still is everything I have ever wanted.  I dont know how to even move on with this whole 'friendship' deal if thats where it goes.  I don't want to lose him but, I may just end up doing that.  That would kill me because he is the most important person in my life to me.  My family isn't important because they have just constantly put me down and thats never a good thing for a girl with a healing heart.  I just wish I could be more like some of my friends who get over a guy quickly and who always have a new guy lining up to take the old one's place.  I have friends that could have any guy they want.  I wish I had that but I don't and it hurts me alot.  It would be easier if I had guys lining up out the door but I don't.  I have talked to him and we have decided to stay friends and it hurts but, I'm willing to do it.  I love him and I'm letting him go, if he comes back then its meant to be if he doesn't then a I made a life long friend.